It's been along time since I updated this blog. Mostly because I have been in school and was very busy. Many wonderful things have happened since I last blogged. I was able to go to Germany twice. To spend Christmas with my beautiful friend Nadja, and the last time to go to her wedding to Jordan. They are the perfect couple and so adorable and it was one of the loveliest moments in my life to see my friend
so incredibly and completely happy. Work finally ironed itself out and my employer found a job and has gone back to work. I have to say, the house is empty without her and the girls miss her.
I survived this last semester with barely a nerve left in tact, only to be diagnosed with a very scary diagnosis by my OBGYN. It would be so easy to feel sorry for myself, and in some aspects, I allowed myself that privilege for a short amount of time. However, after careful contemplation, it will do nothing for me to stress out over something that is not in my control. So, here I am, more calm than I usually am and I have to say, it's a little odd
. It is also Easter weekend, and as such, I am missing my family and have spent my Easter day at church and then watching Disney movies because I have nothing left to do on a Sunday. (Well, nothing seems appealing, there are plenty of things to do, but I have no desire to do them) So while slowly aging in the chair in the living room, one of my favorite movies came on. Meet the Robinson's. The point of this movie is to "Keep Moving Forward" and suddenly, it took on a whole new meaning. With all that is going on; all I have to do is keep moving forward. I cannot stop the diagnosis given, I cannot control what is happening in my body or the way life occurs to some degree. The only thing I need to do is "keep moving forward" and to do the next right thing.
One way or another, life will continue to go on, and if I make right choices, eventually, I will become the woman I would like to be. It is not possible to know the end from the beginning, but I know what I can control and what I can't. The "Serenity" prayer say's: "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference". Amen.
